Dear heart @Anastasia
I had a sleep and am feeling more alert and on the ball a bit more. I read your post throughly and slowly, as well as the quotes. The quotes about letting go of what no longer serves you was a different experience. I have never really had that before. From this experience, I see that Rotary does not serve me and no longer serves me. It does not serve me kindly, it does not serve me in the way of feeling good, it does not serve me that I see I am not going to be able to make the impact I would have hoped too, it doesn't serve me because the type of people Rotary need as members is not the type of member I am or could be and it doesn't serve me because it is very draining instead of uplifting. Such a surprise to have that experience with those quotes.
Moving on, I had already decided a few days ago that I am going to take 6 months break from Rotary. I will not be thinking about what next with Rotary, while I am taking that six months off from Rotary. I think the answer will already be there. I do agree with you. It is absolutely crucial that I take time off without exception.
I went to the doctor yesterday morning. I have an ulstrasound and x-ray to go for as he is thinking I may just have plantar fasciatis. I also am booked in with a podiatrist on the 20th January for this, if it ends up being what the doctor and I think it is. So yes, physical health issues are another reason I need to take time off and take care of myself. My mental health is beyond bad at the moment. So, that is another reason I need time off.
Im also making a lot of changes to my life which means I will be slowing down. That is so hard for me to do. However, I truly see the necessity of doing this in my life and how it will enrich my life and help with my recovery.
This has taken me days to gather this so I could write back to you. I have been talking to @Zoe7
Here is the thread. Re: Sharing thoughts on a relationship topic. - Page 6 - SANE Forums It explains more what I am currently going through so that I do not need to go into anymore depth here. Another rreason I need to slow down.
I am going to give myself a good three months, longer if needed to get my brain working right again. It certainly is not. I can see how people think it is with what I write here, but no one knows the very difficult process I need to go through to get to this point and how long it takes me. They don't see the process.
I have not written to the president yet. I am working up to it slowly. I do have a doctors certficate and still am working out whether or not to include it. I will get around to constructing it over the next two days.
Powderfinger. xx
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