Why I feel USELESS

[Roberta]

OMG I thought I had a SANE Group tonight and I didn’t get an email so I guess I didn’t. I’m just so sick of my stupid friggin brain!!!!!!! I feel so stupid, WHY does my brain not get things right??? I swear I used to remember EVERYTHING. I used to be clever and articulate. Now I feel like a lump of human flesh with no friggin idea. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, PTSD and Bipolar but now my psychologist is thinking I also have ADHD. Seriously…. How the hell are we meant to function and hold jobs in society. My poor husband at the moment has to carry most of the weight because I’m having yet another friggin breakdown. I’m burnt out AGAIN and am having problems leaving the house, working, doing laundry, having a shower. I used to work as a carer and now I feel like a person who needs caring!! I could really do with someone to help me do some basic things so I don’t lose my goddamn mind. I’m so used to masking and pretending but if someone comes to the house they can tell I’m just completely drowning and don’t know where to start. I constantly shake and need meds to function. So frustrated. Sorry, just needed to vent where some other peeps can probably relate! And Thank DOG for my dogs, one of my reasons for living. I wish I could take them with me everywhere. 

[tyme]

Hey @Roberta ,

I hear what you are saying. Sounds incredibly difficult, but you know what? You are not alone.

I've recently been battling absentmindedness. I'm always late and forgetting things!

You should see the wall of sticky notes I have everywhere (including my computer screen) - just so I don't forget things!

What I'm trying to say is that I hear how frustrating and hard it can be. I hope you find ways to work through some of the challenges.

I'm sure there are things you are great at too!

Sitting with you.

Also, were you able to work out why you didn't get a link to the group? Is this something you can follow up? Please let us know if you'd like support with this.

[0ddsidian]

Hey @Roberta 😊

I totally hear you. Some days I ABSOLUTELY feel like a lump of flesh. I guess we all actually are... but we're still much more complex than that too.

I have an assortment of diagnoses myself; one of which is ADHD. One thing that I have noticed REALLY impacts my memory and ability to do the "adult stuff" is more hormone cycle. Some times of the month I feel so useless and like everything is a mammoth challenge. I often feel so much shame about having people come to my house and seeing how much I struggle. My Mum also says that menopause was a huge challenge for her and her memory. And my Mum used to be a carer too.

In regards to the group, I hope you don't mind but I did check our system and you weren't scheduled for a group tonight. If you're ever unsure, feel free to call our General Enquiries Line on 1800 187 263 (if you want an immediate answer) or email us at saneservices@sane.org and someone will respond to you within 2 business days.

[Roberta]

Thank you so much! I’m still a bit confused with the meetings lol. I thought I still had one left 🤷‍♀️ but maybe I didn’t! I’m doing a lot better! I was definitely in burn out. I still have a little too much anxiety some days but hubby has been helping me lighten my load and my meds seem to be right now too which is good!

[Roberta]

Thank you so much! I’m still a bit confused with the meetings lol. I thought I still had one left 🤷‍♀️ but maybe I didn’t! I’m doing a lot better! I was definitely in burn out. I still have a little too much anxiety some days but hubby has been helping me lighten my load and my meds seem to be right now too which is good!