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[Annniiieee]

Hi, I’m new to this….. im in a good space at the moment but a couple of weeks ago I was really struggling mentally and I find it hard to talk to people about it. I did reach out to a friend to ask who she spoke to when she went through a rough patch and she gave me the open arms number but I never called. I was away for 12 weeks with work and really struggled mentally and felt really isolated at times. I was going to work and doing my job and socializing at work but when I got back to base I felt like absolute shit and some nights would sit there and just cry. I feel stupid now just saying it, but for quite a while now I feel like I’m trying to convince myself I’m fine and I just need to get over it but there are times I really struggle in my own mind and I think that’s why I like working so much because it keeps me busy. 

[Jynx]

Hi @Annniiieee welcome to the forums, I'm so glad you found this space. It can be tough to open up about our struggles, and there's nothing 'stupid' about struggling and needing to release things, whether it's through tears, talking to a friend, or joining a space like this one. You deserve to have that space to be not okay, and still feel heard and accepted through it all. 

I hope you find what you're looking for here, and of course please feel free to check out our Shoulder-to-Shoulder space to connect with others who've served/are serving as well 😊

[PeppyPatti]

Hi @Annniiieee  just wanted to reach out and welcome you to the community.im usually on the conversation thread called Nightshift or tabuluga or sounds like …. 

I hope you are feeling a little more relaxed.
 @Jynx : there is nothing bad about struggling, and you deserve a space to be not okay. Keeping everything bottled up and trying to convince yourself you're fine is exhausting,

when I met my latest Carer to sit with me and make earrings ( !!!) 

I noticed when she came to be interviewed her face changed and she looked vulnerable and I thought this is the lady for me because this is exactly how I feel all the time …..

Your brave  to open up like this, even anonymously.
You don't have to just get over it on your own.

thankyou for writing it we are a welcoming bunch and we get what your feeling because most of us are working at tools and tips on getting through ourselves 

[Taali]

Good morning @Annniiieee and welcome here,

I concur with @PeppyPatti 

You are not stupid, you are suffering from an illness that many of us don't understand or have the power to defeat. 

Please continue to reach out. 

I know it sounds cliche, but you are not alone and must trust  your own self who is telling you that now is the time to seek support. 

It's wonderful to meet you here as I've found that this is a very safe place with guidance and links to valuable support avenues. 

Go gently ✨️ 

Taali